I am a sinner. Honestly, I don’t understand that gravity of that. In Nehemiah, when Ezra reads the law to the Israelites, they wept. When Josiah re-found the book of the law, he tore is robes in anguish and sorrow. David, after being confronted by Nathan, breaks down. Jesus, in the middle of his triumphal entry into Jerusalem, weeps over Jerusalem and the sin that blinded it. In Leviticus, God instructed the people to sacrifice an animal even for an unintentional sin.
Yet, why does my sin seem so ephemeral, so abstract? Why do I fail to notice the daily things I do to oppose God? Why is sin a term that seems so easily thrown around in Christian circles, with no struggle, no heartbreak, no conviction? My sin seems occluded from my sight, darkness within darkness. If I could peer into the depths of my soul, if I could see what lies at the bottom, would I be swallowed whole?
The price of sin was death and destruction. The price of sin was the death of Christ. Even with these tangible things, I still do not understand it. A billion is a tangible number, yet can I really understand how much that is? The size of the atom I can quantify, but can I really tell you what that’s like? In the same way, I do not understand sin. I don’t feel it in my bones. I don’t understand why Christ had to die. I don’t understand why anybody would weep over their sin. Just like how I could tell you all the signs of love, yet not understand it, I could tell you of the destruction sin brings, but In truth I do not know it.
I am dead in my transgressions. What can a blind man tell you of sight, or a deaf man tell you of sound? Even a blind man can feel the heat from sun, and a deaf man feel the vibrations of the air. But the blind man can’t know what it is to see, nor the deaf what it is to hear. How can they know that they’ve lost something? Only one who has vision and who has hearing could show them. In the same way, only God can tell me that I’m a sinner. Only by God’s grace can I feel my sin in my bones, only by God’s light can I peer into the depths of my soul.
How foolish I am, to think that I could come towards God with my own strength, with my own wisdom. What is left to me now but prayer and petition?
"But everything exposed by the light becomes visible - and everything that is illuminated becomes a light. This is why it is said: "Wake up, sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you." -Ephesians 5:14
Why is sin a term that seems so easily thrown around in Christian circles, with no struggle, no heartbreak, no conviction? My sin seems occluded from my sight, darkness within darkness. If I could peer into the depths of my soul, if I could see what lies at the bottom, would I be swallowed whole?
O Come, O Come Emmanuel - Pentatonix
Claude Debussy // Reverie, 1890
I like giving out good books and connecting people with good theology. For that reason, as long as it is financial feasible, I want to give away a FREE Book every month (as long as I can). There will be two ways to enter:
1.) Send an email to Calvinwouldbeproud@gmail.com. In the Subject put November Book Give Away. If you win, I win send you an email to get your info.
2.) Reblog this post on Tumblr. I have to be able to get ahold of you some how, either through PM or email or something of that nature
I am giving out a book for each method of entry, so if you reblog and email, there is two opportunities to win. So if you don’t have a tumblr, still enter through email. I’ll contact the winners November 30.
The book this month is:
Christian Apologetics (2nd ed.) by Cornelius Van Til
This is a textbook for the Intro level Apologetics course at WTS and a good introduction to Presuppositional Apologetics.
Alright, go for it!
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